That Time Again

It's that time of the year again. Where I get super emotional and forget why until it hits me. Next week was supposed to be my twins' birthday. I wonder what they would look like and how they'd act. If they'd have been identical or opposite sexes. I'll never get to hold them and I'll never get to meet them. They were still my babies though and I will never forget them. I know some people think of these like the "pity me" posts or I'm just doing this for attention. My heart hurts and I express myself with writing. I love to write and tend to ramble a lot. This is how I get things off my chest or "talk" it out with myself so I can understand my feelings. This is also a warning for if I'm crazy emotional during the next few weeks. 😘 I often wonder if it was my fault or if they were just sick. I have no clue what happened but I do know they're in a better place. They will never feel pain or know sadness. I kept debating on what to make my "comeback" post about and this is it. What better way then to talk about my 2 little angels who deserve to be remembered. This also goes out to my friends' babies who left the world too soon. Miscarriage is such a taboo subject and it's something I'm very passionate talking about. Don't be afraid of the emotions or wanting to talk about it. Do what you have to do to cope. I want you to know I'm here for you and I'll cry with you. 8 years later and it's still hard. Hang in there friends, you're not alone. ❤️