Deployments

It's that time again! He was home less then a week (from his month long tdy) when we found out that he was possibly deploying. That possibility turned into a "for sure" after being thrown around for a few days. He has to go to training in about 2 weeks for a week, come home for 2 weeks, and then be gone until after Christmas. Having to plan as far out as December when it's only June is extremely overwhelming. It sucks knowing he'll leave in the summer and get back the dead of winter. Plus he gets to miss my birthday, my weightloss surgery, beginning of school, Halloween, thanksgiving, Ryker's birthday, and Christmas. I'm already exhausted and it hasn't started yet. I don't have half the support system I had in Texas for his last deployment and I'm freaking out. No one can truly get what it's like to have someone deploy until they've been there. It's like half of your heart is gone the entire time but you have to go on as if nothing has changed. Explaining it daily to the kids is the hardest part. The long periods in between talking to eachother and getting cut off Skype doesn't help either. Whether your spouse is in a "safe" location or not, nowhere is as safe as being in the same country as your family. My heart dropped to my feet when he told me he's leaving. That's a feeling you never forget. It's so hard to work on your relationship or have a relationship when he's half way around the world. So, bare with me these next few months. It's about to get crazy. The roller coaster of emotions has already started and I'm ready to get it over with.