Live and Learn

Over the past few months, I've had a few things really hit me.

1 - I need to stop obsessing with yesterday or I'll miss out on today. Seems simple enough but sometimes its hard to remember. We get so caught up on what happened before that it consumes our life. I was going to vent about a few things the other day and then I realized that in order to move on, I just need to drop it. It happened, learn from it and move on.

2 - I am old. LOL I think since I went straight from living with parents to moving in with my husband, I have a little bit of a harder time growing up. I never got that "college period" or time to myself before diving into a marriage. I didn't get the clubbing days and I still haven't been to a real club. Unless Cowboys counts. I didn't even go to my graduation. It makes it a little bit harder to grow up.

3 - I can not please everyone. I am a people pleaser. I have an incredibly hard time saying no and I love helping people out. With that comes a lot of weight on my shoulders. I can not always be the perfect wife, friend, housekeeper, mother, daughter, cousin..etc. I need to give up my "I can do it all and everyone will love me" mentality and try to find myself under all this mess.

4 - It is not just my responsibility to keep in touch. Being friends or having any sort of relationship is a two way street. You can't expect either to do all the work. By being a military spouse, it's makes it a little tougher. I have friends in a lot of different states and countries. I'm also trying to establish a new life here. I have some really close friends who have stuck by me through it all and I will forever be grateful.

5 - Kids grow up fast! I need to stop obsessing about having a girl or our future and make memories NOW. I've missed out on so much by being pregnant or obsessing about being pregnant and now I just want to enjoy the children in front of me (as I'm writing a stupid blog...GO ME! lol). I've really tried to make it a point to make sure each child gets one on one and feels special. I can not believe how big they're getting and I don't want to miss out on anything!

6 - Colorado is not my home anymore. Coming back from Okinawa, I was soo excited to be home. Now I'm beginning to realize that my home is wherever my family is. I don't know a lot of people in Colorado anymore and a lot of them have moved on too. Its a part of growing up.

7 - Family is everything. My family is what makes or breaks me. They have the power to build me up or tear me down. In that sense, so do I. I need to try to be more patient and watch what I say.

8 - I'm afraid of churches. I have grown a huge fear of churches and I'm beginning to see that its not really the church but the people in the churches. I'm afraid of rejection and judgment. I know I need to get over my fear and just go. Hopefully one day my kids will finally not have the forever cold anymore and we can check out some places. I do however, love my Bible study and I'm so glad I joined it.

9 - Not everyone is bad or out to get you. Plus, I do not need to be friend with everyone. My husband told me that and I think I really needed to hear that.

10 - Someone will always have it worse off then you. When you think your day is bad, remember that someone else is going through the same thing if not worse. I've seen a lot of shows, friends, family going through some hard situations and I'm so grateful my family is healthy and financially secure :)


All in all, its just some stuff I've been thinking about or working on :)